i feel refreshed and alive.

i'm on my balcony watching the sun start to set and its pretty. theres one huge gray cloud over to the left hovering crown center... then the sun sets right south of the city, so bright tonight that my eyes hurt to look at it. my balcony luckily steals wifi from some great neighbor. so my time on the computer is spent out here. hopefully by winter my router will work.

the past few weeks have been an insane rollercoaster of emotion and life and everything... i dont enjoy inconsistant emotions and usually dont deal with it at all but my heart hasnt felt uneasy about being this way lately. alot of stuff is changing... i've been setting up my art room for a week and finally got done today. i think it will be a place that i feel at home and alive which is good b/c i think i'm lacking that somewhat these days. i miss my green room in maryville with wood floors and my windows open. i dont have windows anymore and the rug i have is tweed or something and it gets little furries all over everything. once it gets cooler i can open my screen door and that will be nice.




i went to branson with drea, lucas, shanna, alan, julie, nicholas and the richardsons last weekend and although i was sick it was still one of the most refreshing times i've had in a while. we took lots of photos and went thrift shopping and ate at unplanned places. julie'd like to call it "jellyfishing" but we'll just say we "took it easy" becuase lets face it people, jack johnson's music all sounds the same. sorry.

i also visited manhattan kansas for the first time the other day and it was a nice little place. i'm excited to go back soon and explore. we wrote out goals on the way there which made my heart excited for the months to come. theres a thrift store on the way into manhattan that i keep thinking about. i ate at a great little place on the corner of some street... then drove to kansas city with one of the sickest feelings i've felt in a long time. my boyfriend lives two hours away and that is lame. he makes me laugh most of the time.

today i went to river market antique mall with julie, alyssa, kate and amy... this place might be one of the most overwhelmingly exciting places i've been. its four stories of history and adventures through clothes, cameras and dishes and books and everything you could dream of. i could spend days there. julie bought a bible that my great granny had. its dark green with gold writing on the front. i bought a tan dress that imagine someone great wore and she had really exciting times in it. i cant wait to wear it. it was $7.00 which is more than i would love to spend on a dress but i thought it was worth it this time. plus i have a mom job now. haha. we saw lots of cool things.

i got a new journal this week. this is always really exciting for me. i've been writing in it while i drink hot tea numerous times a day and it makes me feel alive.

man. the sunsets lookin really amazing now. gods so consistently gives us a sunrise and a sunset everyday and i've been enjoying them religiously lately. i think about the consistancy of days and nights and gods love. it brings the curiosity of things being made new to mind and then i realize gods grace because i always feel like i'm needing a fresh beginning... it reminds me of how much i need jesus in my life. always.

happy new school year everybody.