i have a headache.

i've been frustrated lately with my lack of action. i've been discussing this with a few people lately and it seems that our hearts are all being stirred... but we don't necessarily know what to do. i say numerous things about how i want to live/don't want to live and my life rarely reflects those words. it's lame. holding values without actions to back it up is a dangerous and ignorant thing. i don't want to be that kind of person. to move from these thoughts to action, it's imperative to feel discomfort with who we are. we wont develop any discontent if we compare ourselves with anyone or anything. so this discomfort has been ripping my insides apart for some time now and i am excited about it. my heart, since last summer, has made a series of changes... through realization and discomfort and i believe that if we're honest with ourselves, there will always be ways to become more like jesus... everyday for the rest of our lives.

i don't know exactly what it looks like to be a follower of christ, but i know that i want it so much. i lack courage to carry out my convictions, and i'm a hypocrite (i have knowledge without action) i realize that i need to recognize, and seek out opportunities to become more like jesus and act on it. this could look like a ton of different things. whether its how i spend my time everyday, if i'm in constant conversation with god, if i'm volunteering at the homeless shelter or recycling my plastics, whether is speak to the average passerby or inviting them to dinner... how i spend my money, how i love or don't love. how i'm challeging my thoughts and serving the people around me.

it's overwhelming to me because i feel like i have so much to do and so much to change. but i also realize that the lord wants me to do all these things.. he wants my life to radiate this love. so when i pray for these opportunities and seek them out, he'll totally provide them and then provide the strength to do them. i must force myself to remember and be completely motivated by god's love behind it.

i really dont ever want to grow comfortable with the way that i live. contstant growth and constant change is something i desire so much. a content mind is so proud and is has nothing to learn. it has an answer to everything and nothing to ask. i really think that jesus wants our minds to be super active, like a little kid with a million questions.

alot of these questions have been raised in my mind because of a few books... "serve god save the planet" by matthew sleeth and "the irresistible revolution" by shane claiborne, both of which i would highly recommend to you.


what.to.do.

volunteering.

the kansas city rescue mission.
www.kcrm.org

city union misison.
www.cumission.org

www.volunteermatch.org


recycling and other environmental issues.

www.bridgingthegap.org